It’s been an age since I have written a blog primarily because I can’t string a sentence together most days. I’m sitting here on the day ward getting treatment. My mental health has taken a bit of a bashing lately. For a number of reasons I think I can trace it back to my stay in the hospital a while back for bronchitis and an infection.  … Continue reading I just need to try remember I am here now I could be here for ten weeks, months or years and I need to grab each day as it comes and enjoy what life offers me. 

It has been a lifetime since my last blog post. When I started writing I always said I would only do it when it felt right and I had something to say. I’m not sure where to begin but mothers day seems like a good start. My life long friends would know my mother and I had a tempestuous relationship when I was a teenager. … Continue reading Cancer really is a bitch… But thanks for all your help along the way . . . .

This week is Cervical Cancer Awareness week so I thought I would tell my story again and how I ended up sitting in my sitting room writing about how I at 35 have terminal Cervical Cancer. I wrote the above last week but unfortunately I have been extremely unwell I got my very first smear after my son Séamus was born in 2006 I was 20. … Continue reading My Story for Cervical Cancer Awareness Week

Happy New Years.. It is hard to imagine but I have actually had one of the best Christmas’s ever. And the reason.. my family. We managed to celebrate together. I got to cook dinner, (with a lot of help obviously) Last night because my brother is home from Canada we decided to celebrate my parents 40th wedding anniversary together and ring in the new year. … Continue reading Cancer and Christmas

I am not one to do things by half. And the cancer it seems is the same. Over the last few weeks, I have been attending the Mater to get some CT and MRI scans. I got told last Thursday at chemo by a registrar the cancer is in the bones. Now the fella was hot as usual (the Mater have a strict good-looking DR’s … Continue reading Hip, T spine, Lungs the lot

I have a tea towel I got as a gift last time I got diagnosed and says “not all superheroes wear capes and has loads of pics of woman in different life roles. I’m planning on framing it (this last two years ) and it could not be more true. If you have read any blog of my mine you know how important and amazing … Continue reading Not all superheroes where capes…

As I’ve mentioned I’m having issues getting Séamus to school. The rushes are blessed with very reactive stomachs and obviously this is one trait Séamus got too. When we are stressed or worried we get such upset stomachs you’d swear it was food poisoning or the bad dose (doing the rounds). But no we are internalizing everything until we make ourselves physically sick. The problem … Continue reading How many times in life do you think you can physically feel your heart break? This evening was one of the strongest chest pains ever. Life is so fucking unfair and I feel like going back for a reshuffle.

Firstly just a reminder to check your bits, women your boobs, glands… Boys your penis and balls (not sure how I feel about typing that .. that’s the catholic school girl in me ). Stay on top of the smears, bowel checks, mammograms, colposcopes and any other tests going. They help. Yes I know nothing is perfect but as tesco says would say every little … Continue reading Happy Friday Everyone…I won’t lie, I struggle to tell the difference it’s been that long since I was in working.

It’s been a couple of months since my last post, when I shared the good news the treatment for my cervical cancer had worked and I was clear from cancer. It’s a weird one.. I need to be absolutely delighted to be cancer free when in fact I don’t think I fully processed getting the cancer diagnosis or the fact that I lived away from … Continue reading Introducing the new me and what I would tell the pre cancer me